sometimes, I act like a fool.. pple I like think it's okay to flare up at me whatsoever whenever whereever.. it's really quite saddening at times.. but what can I say..

And though I may talk crudely at times, it's okay if you think I'm not a very innocent guy.. but behind it, I usually have a reason.. why do you think I want to portray myself as a dirty pervertic jerk? Do you really think I'm so stupid to tarnish my image and that would win me friends? I try to be as true to myself thats all man.. but most of my closer friends do understand why I'm like that.. I'm glad for that and I really can talk anything without you having a weird look on your face when I say something awkward..

today I just pissed someone off.. I just want to tell you that I really have my reasons for acting certain ways.. don't you find it odd that I keep mentioning such stuff now? I understand it is insensitive on my part.. but how do you think I would feel when you simply react with such negative feelings in a eruption outburst.. I really feel bad after.. but it's really tiring to have to keep salvaging the situation.. not that I do it unwillingly.. but it really gets very tiring after awhile..

but it really pains me to see you getting upset..

glad I met felix and rongxin just now.. it sure feels good to be able to say whatever I want and be understood.. though it would be good if PS could turn up.. forever skirt chasing.. tsk tsk tsk.. hahahahahahahahahahaha..